the truth inside myself

what if,
i decide to throw all my past?
what if,
i make the decision to bring all the happiness only?
but now, only if
i make the decision for not doing the same mistake again.
if,
time can reverse.
if,
i was not choose to be alone.
if,
i want to be the darkside pedestrian.
if,
i wish all can understand my situation.
it doesn't matter anymore.
because i choose to be keep all in my memory.
i does it, i could make it, i can't follow it, i past it, i fail it or even i chase it.
I'm not the one who can enjoy happiness.
i'm sorry. i died before.
my life was spare by the sympathy.
some would think it is ridiculous,
only if u does believe what I'm saying,
it is reasonable.
because i am not the right person who can follow the rule.
i feel great when if i reverse and prove all the thing in my mind,
to not show it because it is my favourite
dark side trouble maker, haha haha haha haha