some1 told me success need to be sold out the sacrife to gain all include the benefit.
maybe i didn't dare to sell it.
i am sturrborn, i'm foolish, i'm sicker
never mind.
just 1 thing in my mind.
off of it.
the process make me sick.
i not take down by outside, but the people i trust.
no 1 will trust me, that's it.
but do not slap the face with own hand.
i do wat i need to do
never take any regret or guilt.
cos no1, would trust me.
thanks for it, i have no direction, no qualified, no ability, no hopes anymore.
dark side , he he he he he

today was the big day for me.
i would like to face the fact that everybody wish.
and that is i walk to the world to face the cruel.
although some1 might feel i just make fun around and doing childish stuff,
do not put the comment on me anymore.
i'm not giving up to paid anything.
i will rush to through all i need to face.
but i know, when i decide,
i will hurt any1 who care about me.
nevertheless, i don't have the chance anymore.
i don mind to be insult.
maybe this is the creepy thing that people think.
i can't let go of my past.
i just didn't like to be comment and saying rubbish word when i really put my time to my future.
maybe i just like child,
prosperity is my dream all the time.
put the hands off it, don touch.
or i will done the thing that people never assume.

the truth inside myself

what if,
i decide to throw all my past?
what if,
i make the decision to bring all the happiness only?
but now, only if
i make the decision for not doing the same mistake again.
if,
time can reverse.
if,
i was not choose to be alone.
if,
i want to be the darkside pedestrian.
if,
i wish all can understand my situation.
it doesn't matter anymore.
because i choose to be keep all in my memory.
i does it, i could make it, i can't follow it, i past it, i fail it or even i chase it.
I'm not the one who can enjoy happiness.
i'm sorry. i died before.
my life was spare by the sympathy.
some would think it is ridiculous,
only if u does believe what I'm saying,
it is reasonable.
because i am not the right person who can follow the rule.
i feel great when if i reverse and prove all the thing in my mind,
to not show it because it is my favourite
dark side trouble maker, haha haha haha haha

迷

在我心深处，
每当放弃的时候，
都有一把声音会出现。
很奇怪，但是，
这把声音会让我速手无策。
因为那是曾经让我觉得是挑战，
失败，也就是放弃的时候，
会是很没有面子的。
没有方向，没有路牌，
迷路是随时的事情。
很怕，恐惧。
“如果需要时间来进步，那么我驾ferrari的时候，那时你在驾什么车？”
“所以我们要快快成功，慢慢享受。”

难堪之言论

可能目前我还没有什么大作为，
没有努力过，没有卖命过。
一味认为是没用的，
因为先认为是无效的，
不值得我付出任何东西。
天真到现在还是一样。
觉得说付出后不是自己的。
原来没有付出真的是没有回报的
傻到拿自己的前途来开玩笑。
后知自己单纯到碰钉，
伤心都没用，自己能救自己而以。
亲人，贵人都能当观众罢了，帮不上忙。
自己找苦吃。
自己懒惰的性格是绊脚石。
目前能改善的就是自己去吃点苦，
让苦指引我去甜的方向。